StriveToSpin

I'm trying to keep the momentum, my blog illustrates and exemplifies, and pleases me too, that I'm making a difference to some lives. My eventual realisations of TKMS, in action, will mean so fuckin' much to me. I , or try to in the main, keep my emotions in. Most would assume I'm a man. "They're awe the same", but you'd be wrong. It's all about internal heat, and trying to control it. I've been doing that so long I can no longer, turn it off! I may appear rude, even. My old man recently died. When I was initially told, I didn't react as most would. ^ The last time we actually met eyes I crumpled inside. My wife had to ask me questions, as I couldn't talk. "what does he mean to you", with dad listening. "Everything " I replied in tears. Cancer.~ I FUCKING HATE THE TWUNT. It robbed my weans of a granda. Its left my mum alone. It stole My Daddy, and for that I'll come back at you. My Way. Perhaps, once TKMS is worl...

90+ blogs. One of them has a "1" reading. The most is a "57" for wheels of Commerce thingy. I'm blown away. I thank each one of you. I'm thinking yies all believe me!! I don't lie. I learned I feel guilty years ago if I do, and this causes me "internal heat" . My honesty has caused me grief, over the years. I may tell white lies to save somebodies feelings. That doesn't affect me, in the same way. @KeithCa41469726

I'd already visited this topic in a previous blog. However, my shakes deleted it, as it was prior to supplements. Anyhoo, I read some. The gist is, and I didn't know this prior, female skulls are thicker than males, at adulthood. Is this there at childhood? Nogotascoob opinion says aye. I've telt(told) you all already, I know, nothing, of biology. Layman's at best.. I've had to learn awe this explanation of my MethodOfInjury(MOI), for my thesis. However, if you, were to tack weld 15mm plate to another 15mm along the edges, that weld is, easy to break. If you were to weld 12 mm plates together the same way, that weld would be stronger. The shear point is much easier to reach on the 15mm plate. Now if we were to call 15mm Deirdrie, and the  12mm plate, John?. Do yae see where I'm going wae this? A female Occipital collapse, a bursting point, is easier to reach, than males. The 2:1 ratio says that skull thickness plays, a part! At childhood, ...

im trying to word this in ma heid. The very second I enter a space, outwith my own house, I feel for heat, if its there. I adopted that one when I went to visit my parents. My old man liked heat. I'd call him a Polar Bear killer, on several  occasions. Heat effects every individuals order of symptoms, for sure. More on that later. First symptom for me is VISION.(same for all?) next is SWALLOWING dont CHOKE, SPEECH is now an issue VISION PART 2 is individual. "its now appearing in the other eye". then moves onto differences in SHADES of colours all in Fuzzy vision shapes of what yir loooking at!!! The reason, as Ive tried to voice, is heat affecting the Occipital bone and brain, equalling  expansion of them. Each incident results in different outcomes. Now you have more of the cerebellum, in contact with your skull, after Occipital damage. The whole point is to realise the implications of going into a warm room, or causing you INTERNAL HEAT, by exercis...

I've just been advised about ideas for blog. The first I've chosen for you to think on. MS HUG ======= I've not had this for an age, is the first point. From approximately 8yoa to 14y, this was a common. Daily occasion if not 4 times/week" "its like my lungs have went small" "its like wearing clothes that are way too wee" "Once you get used to your New Max breath you'll be OK" "it's like elastic bands x100 are there" My realising a wee boy can't go on like this, was gradual. In my head, I knew my lungs weren't  full, but it was going to be painful to go beyond that barrier. [omg] Bigboy pants enable!!![/omg] I FORCED ME! I BURST THE TINY WEE AIRBAGS IN MY CHEST! 😤😤🤯 "IT WORKED. IT WORKED" Edit:: knowing the know, I'd now espresso wae PK. I was 9 my head says now. Thereafter, I knew this was a tiny test, of what had to be done later, alone.. Bite the bullet. Take that...

I've just edited the blog about me widening the Occipital Bone leak x5, from the initial damage. Then it clicked! BeepBopBeep moment, indeed. If I hadn't done that, then I maybe would  not have intentionally memorised it.  I wouldn't have had a heads up that I had to move quick before I died.  I may not have been so bright knowing I had to learn learn learn to get me travelling either. I wouldnt have had the heads up to circumnavigate. You'd have hated you if the"rug removed from under yir feet" warning, hadn't been used properly! I didn't know. Everything, everything, has a reason!! MS has a calamitous engineering basis. I know I'm correct about this! I've lived the Bar Steward. @KeithCa41469726 

A  shearing force  will produce a fracture parallel to the direction of the applied  force .  Bone  is weakest under  shear stress  making fractures common even with a minimal trauma. The following image is an  example  of  shear forces  on  bone . Just tried to post an image n I was, repoint Ed to a privacy warning. 😑 See shear graphics incase I git the jail.  The gist is, going from my recollection, it is a shear force combined with my Engineering nuance , under the skin, which has allowed OB and Magnum foramen to separate.  I'll need to see if I can find a decent image, biologically minded.  I'm thinking the force required to split  the bone seam is the force I have to manifest fae CF(centrifugal force). TYPED..since you've no got a scoob about the meaty engineering, this is dubious wasted time. The ideas there. @KeithCa41469726 

I've been farting about in the stats. Theres a wee map of oor marble, and parts of the world litup. I think there is traffic from outside twitter, therefore here's the link again, so you may know wit I'm on about. ======== This is a V3. The others are with my neurogod(neurologist).  The reason and repair of MS, with TKMS He, and the Queen Elizabeth Uni. Hospital in Glasgow, had first dibs. Obviously, I had to further this myself. "take the bull by the horns n mind yir bugle " @KeithCa41469726

I was at, an MS coffee morning thang ages ago.. One guy, 50ish, was told to stay away from caffeine, he wanted a Cappuccino badly!! Poor soul. Wawa😱 Perhaps he was told, by an MS nurse, for fear of him dropping ballast(pissing himself) , or irritating his bladder, causing spasms. I don't know! What they were doing was worsening their patient. Unintentionally. Of course. Eternal cynic, I am, knows. They kept them on the Wheels  Of  Commerce. Unintentionally, of course. Triple Magnesium Complex, strips the need for Gabapentin. Big doses of B12 change this mucky mess into a hassle. Canah makes it a pain in the arse, you can deal with. The CONDITION is all setup to worsen when heat is involved by expansion of Occipital Bone burst, acting on Cerebellum (tail part of yir brain). Now, when Thalamus   and his wee brother Hypothalamus were impacted we have a woooo neenawneenaw, disease.  Pfft. I invite you all to suss out varying sections on cerr...

My thesis is all down to the 15/2/81. It is 8 days after and that is what I'm about to try and word. 😅 Anyhoo, For the remainder of the next 2 year I was mad  worried about it. All because of these 2 events. E1 and E2. The 15th and 23rd of February 1981. E1 mangled my heid innards. Caused me unknown drama, I didn't know how much. I'd have to find oot. Doh!! E2 is a C shape, backwards, with my body. One end is my heid and the other my feet. Now, knowing wit I know now, I basically knew  my brain was down the back of my neck. My forming the C shape. Was a stoopit(daft) thing to do. When basically touching my head with my back caused me to become stuck in that position. STATUE LIKE!(lasted probably less than 2 secs but felt 22s) "you were right" "that was your brain probably"(referring to Occipital Bone collapse being burst, and brain falling downwards. ) I also mind a pot pourri like squeeze.[this is condryls probably.] 38yrs la...

My heid is all over the place......  I'm going to try and collate everything.  I want many neurologist to see my thesis. MSers need them to read between the lines. The lie has been proven using medical literature. [search Thalamus functions] and a link saying, sitting compared to lying down gives different results. This is too important to leave, Keith. So far, Thesis(th.) 😉 is.. online and blogged. In minds of many using twitter. In a second neurogod hands, I know of. In an academics hands In 3 medical students hands, 2ndyear BTW. They also have link to STRIVETOSPIN.com and thats how they'll contact me again.. Imo, a big name is needed. In that regard I'll have to blink think. https://docs.google.com/document/d/1txY_vp0zVDYahRqZIzg_2yoDMbxXGASclOduZytPpnU/edit?usp=drivesdk https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/ pmc/articles/PMC2525914/ 636 views  @KeithCa41469726 

I was pissing myself for Scotland , when caffeined by drinking weaker coffee. I was dead annoyed this was causing me to have to change underwear, clothes, etc. 2or 3 times a day. This was at same time as b12 5k ripoff I mentioned in previous blog. My pain levels were incredible. My apportioning the blame was off. I want a coffee. 🤔 But yir on decaf tea. 💩 My take on that period... Caffeine, Magnesium, CBD, B complex, b12, + loads more. "surely the pain isn't down to no caffeine, Keith." From what I've sussed the B viamin gang enabled me to hold my bladder. Cue add caffeine at a higher dose. My ability to hold it in improved!! My pain levels plummeted. Now, I'm on high caffeine coffee. Less liquid=less wetting. I've no dropped ballast(nautical joke for pissing me) for a while. PK now do their job. I feel awake... Caffeine at a higher level is needed It's finding the dose, guided by your pain levels, that suits each and ever...

I'm an only child. I'm a bitty pissed about that fact. The memories are appearing rapido style, one of me walking home alone fae primary school, thinking.. "I wonder if other wee boys are the same as me". "Maybe you'll get a wee brother to tell them" "wonder when I'll die?" "will Mum n dad be OK  without me" "should I tell them?" The last two have me laughingly teary. I'd love to invent a.time machine. That's no gonna happen! * SORRY. 🤨 I Can PART REPAIR THE DAMAGE, THOUGH! !! @KeithCa41469726

Any, and every, family member of an MSer, have been robbed, by the impact too them  as a wean. If you've never ever, had an  impact, then it's inertial force by you. Probably moving too fast, like me. I am the Best Battering Ram  after all. The damage as a kid, to your Occipital Bone, which is from back of the head to yir neck, is still damaged decades later(friction points of the calcification at least. This would be benign MS? ) . The only change from your day, is Thalamus furring up and some more friction on your Cerebellum. I INVITE you to print out my thesis and plank it down in front of  health care professionals. Thing is, my repair scenario is common sense.  Nobody can make big dough off of a physics principle. NOT BY ME!! !! It is/was my duty, my point in life, to make this better, for ALL of us. https://docs.google.com/document/d/1txY_vp0zVDYahRqZIzg_2yoDMbxXGASclOduZytPpnU/edit?usp=drivesdk I am not wasting people's time.  ...

I injected 20mg MTX yesterday. "I was expecting much worse" @0930 hrs, I went back to bed as I had 1 hour left before I end my modified chemo by takin 5mg folic x 2. I was rewoke at 1120, my two legs didn't take it well,  at being  asked to work. The pain was wowser, again. 🤔 I was going  to watch football, as I said I would, to fittie daft son. "you don't have to if you feel bad, Dad" "he'll be OK once supplements are done" says my wife. Took me hours to feel gid. Still feel off, tbh. I need hammered in, nice n flush. Massive improvements but by god stick to yir times like glue, Keith. @KeithCa41469726